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Finally! An update!

Saturday, October 27, 2012 | 11:30 AM | 0 hearts♥

With my pattern bannyak housemates. ❤

I accidently deleted all the photos I uploaded in blogger , which means all the pictures of my blog post is GONE. FOREVER GONE.

I took months to recover from my bad mood.

That's why you can't see me updating my blog since that day onwards.

Everything is going fine , except for my academic.

I'm going to change the degree course I'm currently studying coz I'm not doing good in the final examination of semester 1.

Most of the people told me to continue it.They're giving comments like :

" It's just sem 1. And you want to give up so easily without a second try ? "

"Not doing good in sem1 doesn't mean you can't do it better in sem2."

"You can explain well to me about the part I don't understand , you actually understand, but why you can't answer in the examination while I can do it ?"

"Just continue to work hard ,you did badly in sem1 of Foundation yet you score well after that. You know you can do it again in degree, right? "

Yet , I planned to give up upon it.

Getting bad result is one of the main reason and another main reason is I realize the degree course is not what I really wanted.

Bad results is the thing that hit me hardly.

Honestly , I did put in effort in it. As in I reached my limit. I've never pushed myself that hard.

I feel horrify whenever I heard FINAL EXAMINATION.

I tried so hard to calm myself down to think , yet I failed to do it.

Mum said it's like I'm going to prepare for the world's end.

There's a day when I'm studying , she joke with me and she got scolded by me.

A house mate who see I was stressed out trying to prank on me to help me release my stress yet got scolded too.

I am such a bad tempered girl. I can't even controlled my own emotion to calm down.

Deep inside , I'm plagued with anxiety and stress.

I felt so disappointed and depressed in myself.

All I want is pass my degree course without failing. I don't want much.

I pray hard yet the I still feel anxious.

Ever since I start study in this University I put myself under academic stress.

I am okay , not being emotional for quite a long time coz I am cherish by love.

Family love. ❤' love. Friends love.